Un-freaking-believable.

Today, after spring had finally seemed to have broken, we had a nor'easter. Think hurricane, but snow instead of rain. I woke up and had to brush about eight inches of snow off my car. By the time I was done, it was already covered again.

Then I went to the bus stop, and the bus was very, very late. There is no shelter there, so this snow was literally suffocating me, despite the fact that I had on a hat, tucked my hair in, and wore a gaiter. It was whipping all around in all directions, going in my eyes, up my nose, and into my lungs. It was miserable. That is when I started getting angry.

Then I got to the train station, which is outside. There were no trains. It took forever, maybe another 15 - 20 minutes for a train to show up. Again, snow literally choking me, I was getting angrier by the second. Angry, and massively sad.

Why did I move to Boston? Dumbest thing ever. Why would anyone willingly put themselves through this misery? Why would anyone do this? Why is this state even open? Why isn't the whole place shut down? Who lives like this?

I was so mad at myself by the time I got to work, my pants were wet up to my knees, my hair soaking, I was fuming, mad at myself, mad at my city, mad at my life, wishing I had thought this through better. I had just had enough.

When I got to work I was nearly crying, I told everyone to leave me alone, tears nearly came about 10 times, I kept running downstairs for air and cigarettes, hoping no one would be there.

The absolute worst thought was my car. I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown trying to figure out what I was going to do with my car when I got home. I knew it would be plowed in, and I wasn't smart enough to buy a shovel when the weather was warmer. You all know how I have a tendency to obsess over things...well I did. I obsessed all day. I felt so helpless, had no idea what I was going to do, figured I would have to let my car get towed, but had no way at all to pay a towing bill.

I nearly cried in the cab, on the train, and when I got home and saw my car, I thought it was over. I was done.

Today was the first day I actually thought I was going to have to give it all up, and move back home.

I took Mogs out, and the caretaker guy was out there. I sort of gave him an earful of my woes (poor guy!!), how was I going to dig my car out, I don't even own a shovel, blah blah, and he did the most amazing thing.

He said, you know, I have my shovels out on my porch every day. You can use them whenever you want, just always make sure to bring them back.

WHAT?!? I was shocked! Absolutely floored. I could not believe he just said that.

He could see how upset I was, and said, you know, you should just go inside, get warm, get a good night's sleep, and worry about it tomorrow. But I knew tomorrow the snow would be ice, and it would be 10x worse. Everyone else was digging, so I knew it was probably best I just got out there and did it. And he said, yeah, I didn't really want to mention that, I figured you could use some rest.

The guy parked behind me was digging out his car. He asked me, "Are you going to dig your car out now?" And I said, "Well, yeah, I mean, I guess, but I just don't know. I have no idea, this is just so overwhelming."

And he said, "Well, I actually need your car to move in order for me to get out, so I will be willing to help you dig out if you will move your car."

WHAT?!? Double whammy? I absolutely could not freaking believe it. Yes it was kindness with a selfish motive, but it was KINDNESS all the same.

He helped me dig out, told me which roads were salted best, and how to get back to my street to park on the plowed side.

I could not believe it. I could not believe this horrible, hideous day, the day that brought me to the brink of my breaking point, turned out so amazing.

It was a miracle. It really was. I cannot believe it, I cannot believe the span of emotions one person can feel in a day.

I am happy with Boston again. Really happy. So happy that now I think I will finally cry, but it will be super happy tears of relief, joy, comfort, and restored faith in humanity.